I have been taken apart by the horrible movie Tree Of Life, and it might be some time before I am put back together again. I wish I could go back and un-see it. I do not think that beauty excuses cowardice, anger excuses the abuse of children, or the pretensions of High Art excuse the base cruelty of this film.
I am suspicious and mistrustful of the people who loved the movie; I have to come to terms with that in a very personal way. I have no tolerance for the abuse of children. I would have killed my father in that movie, as the oldest boy had the chance to do. He could have just nudged that jack, and dropped the car right on his father’s horrible chest, crushed the life and the abuse right out of him.
I would have done it, without hesitation. I was forced to decide last night, and by the time the boy walked away I had already committed the act in my heart. It was a terrible feeling, and I did nothing to deserve it. I didn’t know, going in, what the movie was about. I just trusted the people who said it was beautiful.
I don’t know how long it will last, but as of today I hate Terence Malick with a passion that I have exercised for few other humans. If I ever see him, I will kick him, very very hard, and tell him why. I wish I could physically strip him of his financing, his awards, and his sense of well-being. And let me tell you, it takes a lot for me to move to that place. Such needless weight has been laid on me; today I am a person with a heavy heart and a bruised soul, a person who has been asked to endure the loss of a child without knowing in a timely matter which child is gone, without understanding what happened and why he could not be saved. I have stood silent and ashamed as my husband threatened my children; I am just supposed to walk away from this and what? Have a nice swim? Chit-chat about beadwork? I hate horrible movies, I hate horrible people who hurt children.
Now comes the meticulous, unnecessary, time-wasting separation of reality from nightmare. Goddamn you, Terrence Malick, goddamn you to hell. And to anyone who recommends this movie to anyone else without warning them: what in fuck are you thinking?
Wish me peace.